I've been contemplating starting a blog for over a year now. I wanted a place to sort out the thoughts and emotions I've been dealing with on our infertility journey also a place to keep track of life's musings. Most people start blogs to detail pregnancies or keep extended family up to date on what's going on with their little ones. I don't know what life holds in store for me or if I'll ever have a little one so I will start this blog anyway. My husband is extremely supportive and I couldn't ask for a better partner in life. However, he is a man and doesn't always understand all the emotions and mood swings that fertility drugs cause for me, so this can be my outlet.
Infertility is like driving cross country to your dream destination. There are peaks and valleys, traffic jams, catastrophes, twists & turns. Just like an actual road trip there are also few asshole drivers on the road with you. And on every road trip there comes a time where you have to pull over to rest because you just can't take it anymore. There are those times where someone in your life that didn't plan at all for the their trip takes the easy path and slaps down the credit card for a direct flight and totally beats you to your dream destination while you're still truckin' along on the bumpy road. It doesn't mean they didn't deserve to get to the dream destination just sucks total ass that you did everything you should've and are still not where you wanted to be.
All disappointment and the 2 years of negative pregnancy tests have tested my ability to be an optimistic person, and clouded my ability to view the silver lining. So this will be my place to talk about the challenges and victories in our journey and remind myself that god has a plan and it will all work out the way god intended.
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